CrazyAngel

'Celibate Sexuality'[ For Robert, and for all those young white males, who are choosing to deliberately forgo any, and all, reproductive sexuality for the advancement of racial parity! ]I'm 23 years old. I'm healthy and fit. I think I'm reasonably good looking. I've never had an actual girlfriend before (except for a particularly strong 'crush' I once had, that I never acknowledged).But recently that's changed. I now have a girlfriend! She works at a place I go to frequently to have lunch, and she and I seemed to like each other, and we've gotten together a number of times at her apartment---and, we've 'had sex', at least sort of, by that I mean we've kissed; we've rolled around together on her bed; and I've even gone down on her pussy (and found that to be one of the most amazing, and enjoyable, experiences I'd ever had)---but so far, we've not had intercourse (or 'fucked', to put it more bluntly); so I guess in that sense I can still claim to be a 'virgin!'When I she and I first started to get to know one another, I asked her if she'd ever dated before. She had. In fact, she'd dated quite a lot of different guys; and particularly, black guys. I was immediately intrigued by that, and eventually I confided to her that I was a huge fan of interracial porn. As I said that I worried if I should have admitted that to her, but she didn't seem bothered by that at all! "Yeah," she said, with the funniest, and to me, very sexy, smirking-sort-of-smile, "I know a lot of guys who are into that. I mean, white guys," she added, in order to be clear."Really?" I replied, curious for her to elaborate further."Oh bahis siteleri yeah!" She said. "The last two white guys I dated were way, way into the whole BBC and interracial cuckolding thing!" "Seriously?""Oh yeah!" She said, now smiling fully. "That stuff is SO popular!""Among guys?" I said."Yeah. Mainly among white guys, but women are into it too!""That's all I ever watch," I said, admitting it to her freely."It's pretty potent stuff," she said, apparently in agreement."I think I may be addicted to it!" I said, feeling less and less reluctant to be open and honest with her about my interests.She gave a humorous chuckle, and said, still smiling: "Better than crack!""Yeah," I replied, feeling curiously aroused and excited to be so open and transparent with her. With my mom, I had to be super careful to keep my porn viewing history a secret! I was enjoying being so completely free around this slightly older woman.Over time, she and I got more and more intimate, and she answered all my questions without hesitation. Her frankness was refreshing. I came right out and asked her one time if she preferred white guys, or black guys when it came to sex; and without the slightest hesitation, she said: "Black guys definitely!""Why is that?""They've got the biggest cocks I've ever had; and I've had white guys, and they were okay, and some even have a decent sized cock, but black guys...they just fuck SO much better!""How do they fuck better?" I asked. I was so intrigued by the intimacy our conversation that I was getting turned on, and my cock (which was on the small size!) grew erect behind my zipper as canlı bahis siteleri we were laying together on her bed."They just---DO," she said. "I mean, it's not just that they have really big cocks, it's also the WAY they use them. The white guys I've been with (sexually) were nice. They were thoughtful. Considerate. Gentle. But as far as fucking went, well..." and she paused for a second to consider how to proceed; and then she said: "Black guys can last a long, long time; and they can come more than once; and that's something a lot of women (whether they admit it or not) want."She propped herself up on her side and looked into my face for a second. "Did I hurt your feelings saying that?""No," I replied, though I guess I did feel a slight twinge of...of what? I wasn't sure. Maybe...regret? Though it felt more like envy, to be honest.I'd already told her I didn't have a big cock, and she hadn't seemed to care that this was the case. She said she liked me for "other reasons." I wasn't exactly sure just what that had meant, but I liked that she liked me!As time passed, we saw each other about twice a week (always at her apartment, since I still lived at home with my mom). We never had intercourse. Instead, she loved it when I went down on her pussy, and since this was the first pussy I'd ever 'had', in anyway, I found it very exhilarating! I absolutely loved the warmth, the taste, and the aroma of her pussy, as I probed with my fingers and tongue; and I loved it when she'd come, and I could feel her pelvic muscles clenching as she had an orgasm---and orgasm that I had been an intimate part canlı bahis of helping to bring about!She agreed that I had a rather small cock (and that she preferred a bigger one when it came to fucking), so we never fucked; but that was okay with me! Often, after I'd spent a long time between her thighs, lapping at her juicy, aromatic pussy (and after a number of strong orgasms for her), she'd encourage me to masturbate in front of her; and because I was so horny, I did just that---and without any feelings of embarrassment from either of us.She said I had a "cute penis." She didn't use the word 'cock', but 'penis', which I took to be in reference to me having a considerably smaller cock than she'd enjoy with other men; and I was fine with that. I had a "penis", not a "cock." Penis sounded smaller than cock, and I thought that fit perfectly for me.Whenever I masturbated for her, she wore a faint sort of smile, though I never took that as a form of mockery, as such. She smiled because, as she had said before: I had such a "cute penis!" It certainly had no comparison to the huge, black, monster cocks I enjoyed seeing when I watched interracial porn; but not everyone can be that way; so, why not accept it for what it is?With my face smeared in pussy juices, and with the taste of it in my mouth, I'd hurriedly jerk off---and when I came, she and I both watched as my sperm jetted out the end of my cock head, and falling across her silky smooth tummy, and sometimes some of it ending up perched on her dark, curly pubic hairs; and looking like different sized, melted pearls!So there you have it---I can still consider myself a 'virgin' (if I consider not having intercourse to be the main definition of that), while at the same time, I can, and do, have sex! In other words, I'm a 'sexual celibate!' and I intend to remain that way.The End